Misused unbalanced sexual energy
Compared to my sister Karmen’s blocked sexual energy, I was complete opposition. In my young years, I was already very eager and interested into sexuality. Unbalanced sexual energy was already controlling my mind very soon. I was feeding sexual desires through my thoughts that became gradually excessive. But then I have also experience a time period with no sexual desires at all. This one lasted about 2 years.
And after those two years it has turn around again to even more uncontrollable and unbalanced sexual relationships. After the age of 25 sexual force became an inner obsession. I became addicted to sex and with no strength to control it anymore. My sexual blockade has awakened strongly, then flew through my thoughts and completely feed my attention. Mental images and excessive thinking overpowered me. It fed my desires uncontrollably.
With the impact of this unbalanced sexual energy, I confused healthy relationship with sexuality. I could not see relationships clearly because the inner sexual wound was leading my life. It cut me off from respectful, meaningful and conscious relationships. It cut me also from my creativity, to live in a present moment and it prevent me to focus on what I truly want to do in my life. Nurturing my thoughts and emotional desires took over my main focus.
I was deeply suffering until I went into a self-healing awakening process. I became finally free with balanced sexual energy. It freed me on so many different levels and it will also freed you.
Reflection of unbalanced sexual energy:
Below I share with you how my unbalanced sexual energy affect me and my life:
SEXUALITY AND RELATIONSHIPS
- excessive sexual desire that controlled my life;
- stimulation of mental sexual images;
- not having balanced relationship;
- attracting partners with the same unbalanced sexual energy or complete opposition;
- after the age of 29 not being able to attract any relationship;
- constant pains in lower back;
- kidney troubles;
- menstrual cramps arising in the lower back area;
- irregular menstrual periods;
- hormonal imbalance;
- enlarged left ovary;
- cracking right hip;
- bladder issues;
- over emotional;
- not feeling joyful;
- creativity was not being able to express it self;