I was starting to deal with my fearful thoughts after I watched a movie where negative thinking was very much exposed. At that time I was smoking cigarettes. And for every new cigarette I smoked, I became aware of my negative fearful thoughts arising. I heard loud thought now more than ever. The thoughts were telling me: “You are going to be sick. You will get throat cancer. You are going to die…”
Thoughts were noisy and every new day crazier. I couldn’t stop them. So, I started to smoke less as I believed it would help. But it didn’t. Through the days I became fearful about my negative thoughts again. I believed after watching that movie that every single negative thought is going to cause an illness and negative future for me. Not knowing the real meaning of catching a negative thoughts in my mind.
So, I felt trapped in my mind. I didn’t have the solution to separate myself from the thoughts and my fears. At that time I was not even aware of choice of separation that I had.
After some months, I started to deal with another health issue – panic attacks (written story HERE). With this health problem my fearful thoughts arose even stronger. I completely believed to my fearful thoughts as they were telling me: “You will die, get ill, end up in mental hospital. You are never going to be well. It is the end for you.“ And so much more. It was such a strong identification with my thoughts and that strongly affected my sight which has increased to see external life blurry. Also, my breathing became labored. And I felt a huge weight in my chest for days. All my attention was in my mind – head. All that was very much stressful and exhausting.
Diving into my deeper self
I approached to the healing of my fearful thoughts/wounds by going within because nothing else could cut the root of my thought patterns. First, I started with HEALING MEDITATION and through out the day I added EXPENDING CONSCIOUSNESS. The process was gradual but very effective, powerful and it freed me forever.
NOTE/IMPORTANT: Do not be afraid if fearful thoughts and negative thinking arise during your self-healing process. Because they will . And they need to in order to be healed. This is the process of dissolving your wound. When it dissolves from your energy field, then no fearful thoughts will arise anymore. Liberation from the fearful thoughts and negative thinking is born. Thoughts will still arise. But this time they will be clear thoughts, derived from your powerful Being – from consciousness that you are. No more fear in your life. Instead, freedom, lightness and health will be reborn. With lots of Love and healing support, Karmen / Self-healing teachings with Suzana