Of all the diseases that I had experienced, this lasted the longest time. It was very tricky to find the cause of it, even though my sister Suzana has already experience it a few years before.
It all started with innocent heat in my stomach area while I was working in the office. At that time, feelings of gentle heat in my stomach area began. As if my stomach was lightly burning from the inside out. The heat appeared occasionally. It was not regular or predictable in the beginning. But it has arisen to the surface almost every time I was working in the office – sitting on the chair. This heat in my stomach was not known to me. I didn’t understand it at that time.
Burning ball within my body
When my outer solutions didn’t work, I became very worried. Fears about the possible side effects of this heat in my body were running through my mind. My thoughts were negative and fearful. They were telling me that I will get sick. Because my fears were growing, so did the heat. It got worse and wilder. The heat intensified to burning sensations in my body. It felt like as though I was living with a burning ball in my body. It became unbearable and unpleasant through the whole day. When I came from work, the heat spread to the level where I could not focus on anything else but just on those burning sensations. The intensity of burning sensation was so strong, that all I could do was to lay down.
I was more looking forward to go to sleep than to wake up. While I was sleeping, I did not feel those sensations. I was able to sleep normally. But as soon as I woke up, the heat awakened and increased through the day. Evenings were the worst, because I was already really tired from those sensations.
The right solution
I started to meditate with the company of my sister in the room, lights on and with silent music. And for the first time, after a lot of months with those constant burning sensations in my body, I felt amazing. My stomach felt relaxed and heat in the body has finally subsided for few hours. This was for me more than I could ask for. I immediately recognized the right solution. I was feeling happy and excited. Also I was looking forward to the next day, next meditation.
My burning sensations did not stop that day. It was a gradual healing process that demanded from me dedication, inner healing and expansion of my awareness. With burning sensation, body was giving me signals of stuck energy within my body.
On my inner healing process I used two important and basic healing tools:
1. Healing meditation in the evening and
through out the day 2. Practical exercise: Expanding of my consciousness.
Sometimes during meditation, the heat was still strong, so I could barely finish with meditating. Strong sensations sometimes arose with its full power, then they subside fully and gradually heals forever.
The cause of the burning sensations in my body
Deeply repressed and suppressed emotions caused burning sensations in my body. In the past, I was abused and verbally attacked many times, unhappy and unsatisfied with my life. But with the years, the wounds gradually locked in the unconscious level without me being aware of them.
But when past became more and more clear from within through the self-healing process, the burning sensations began to subside and disappear. I felt lighter and happier. Not only that. For the first time, I felt joy and peace awakening within me.